So even though I don't like the term "my hormones are flaring up" (it sounds so middle school to me-sorry to my unnamed friend who says it), I can't think of a better way to say it at the moment. sigh.

In related news, there were some people passing out flyers for an event being held by the Harvard AIDS Coalition with what I thought were red ribbons attached on the back, but they turned out to be condoms

So I've been bad about the post everyday thing. Sorry, ya'll-i'll try to be better.
Let's see, what's going on nowadays.

Still seesawing (is that how you spell it) with the girl thing. I know in my mind what direction I want to go in (kinda) but am still trying to communicate that to the rest of me.

Feeling a bit better about schoolwork-it's a little less overwhelming now, and it looks like we're getting some breaks on our final exams/paper, so the first half of January shouldn't be as stressful/hectic.

Earthquakes and other natural disasters in lots of places-that's so not good. Makes me feel like I should read Revelations again-I haven't in a while.

Weather hasn't gotten too bad yet-I'm thankful for that as long as it lasts.

If I haven't talked to you in a while (other than through this blog, which I hope isn't a substitution for actual interaction) drop me a line in whatever medium you prefer (email, phone, cave paintings)-I'd like it ever so much.

Happy day after thanksgiving.
My roommate cooks a mean turkey and fixins. And he's not bad company either.




Still being thankful

So I realized that all my close friends in my Ph.D program (my "gov friends" as I call them) are women. I wonder why that is (see midsummer blog entries for relevant theories)

They're cute though, and really nice (and cute) so I'm not complaining.

Wondering if you will actually read this, she who's sister did not like to eat carrots.
if so, thanks

and of course thanks to you, you know who you are, for your continued readership (where continued means at least 2 times not counting this one). Even if you're dad isn't the new mayor, I still appreciate that you take an interest in my life, however boring it may be.

I like you guys.

Ok, that was a bit disturbing. So I was reading an article saying that Abu Musab al-Zarqawi, the terrorist leader in Iraq, might have been killed in a fight (there isn't yet any indication whether this is just a rumor or might actually be true). But the disturbing part was that one of my first reactions was to be happy at the news. Now I know that Zarqawi has been responsible for a lot of death and suffering of innocent people, but still, I don't think that we(I) should take joy in anyone losing their life. The Christian thing to do would be to pray for him (and of course for his past and potential victims), however distateful it seems. I'll try that now.

So am I really gonna finish all the stuff I'm supposed to do this semester? Perhaps.

Someone actually reads my blog! (or at least has read it once). Yay!

So I'm averaging about 1 meal of Mexican food per day. I thought that might be a bit unusual, but then realized that there is an entire country of people with a higher average. Plus Mexican food is really good.

so this morning i started thinking about interspacial dating but quickly stopped when I couldn't figure out what such a term would mean. I would like to explore it more-any ideas as to how I could define this new concept?

So I think I'm over it (her) and ready to move on.
It's cloudy today but that's alright.
I've also decided being a good person does not depend on being a good political scientist, though I'm not giving up on the latter just yet.

Letting God be in control.

Ok, so if you know there's basically no chance of you developing anything with someone beyond friendship, and that you probably don't actually want to develop anything else with them bc of different reasons, then why can't you just get over them?

Or maybe you can but you don't want to (or a part of you doesn't at least) bc it still has that masochistic, unrequited wallowing in your own misery feel that we often kinda like? Arg, so frustrating. Including bc it gets in the way of other (potential) relationships.
Sorry to continue harpong on this, however vaguely, in my last several posts. I'll try to be lighter (or at least move on to a different topic) but this has been particularly frustrating the past week or so. Oh well...I am actually decently happy in general, this part of life is just nagging a bit.

It could all be so simple.

Emotions are weird. If only we could choose who we liked, it would make things so much easier. But I guess that wouldn't be as much fun.

So my roommate came in to say hi to me last night and, having not seen him all day, I asked him what he had been up to. He then proceeded to tell me that he had actually been gone since Thursday :) and that he was in Philadelphia for work.

It also turns out that he has a brother and that he stayed with this brother during his trip (ok, so I did actually know he had a brother, but the gone since Thursday thing was still quite amusing to me, and hopefully to my roommate as well).

IS the such a thing as a rebound crush? Meaning, if you had a crush on someone but nothing came of it or was going to come from it, might you develop another crush on someone else as a way of getting over the first person, even though you never actually had anything with the first person? Trying to figure out if I'm in such a situation, and if so, what to do abut it. Should I try to pursue the new person even if I'm not yet totally over the old person, given that I know nothings gonna happen with the old person? Not that I know that anything will happen with the new girl, but it's still a possibility.

Party tonight was fun. Orange and fun. (it was an orange themed party). Still in the kind of fun imagining stage with my current crush. Trying to get over my last one still I guess (I thought I mostly was, and yet...)

Worried about coming on to strong with my current interest, who shall of course remain unnamed in this blog. By "coming on strong" I mean in terms of trying to push spending time with her and whatnot to a greater extent than our relationship might warrant.

Did that last sentence actually make sense? Basically I don't want to get on her nerves or push her away by trying to talk to/hang out with her all the time. Of coure my worry might be all in my head. Suggestions will be considered.

Survived the scary midterm (not survived as in passed, mind you, but as in got through it, and actually had some fun doing it). Today looks like a beautiful day, full of hope and opportunity and sunshine and little elves running around with cookies and gold.

No this isn't the sleep deprivation talking. My mind usually works like this.